Thursday, January 24, 2008
A1.
Finally something that I didn't screw up.
My chinese.
I was utterly depressed after e examination last year.
I thought that I screwed up.
Everyone was confident of themselves.
But I was not.
I was expecting a B3 or A2.
But somehow, I gt an A1.
Yes,
I am happy.
Happy that I did not let my chinese teachers down.
Happy that I did not let me parents down.
Happy that I did not have to take CLL.
Happy that I've once again obtained the same grade as my sister.
Yet, as I was staring at my result slip,
I was thinking.
Is my chinese really up to the A1 standard?
Well I doubt so.
The chinese teachers already said before the o level examinations.
It is not testing your standard,
It tests your attitude.So,
This A1 that I have is A1 for my attitude in mugging for chinese?
I stone at my seat as I see people cry, jump and cheer.
People came up to me and asks,
"Why are you emo-ing"
*I shall not branch out and digress to the abuse of the word "emo" here.*
But I'm not.
I was thinking.
Do I still remember any of my chinese stuff after the examinations?
What is the meaning of this A1 that I have?
Isn't it like,
Just a grade?
And then,
I look around.
Tears of despair,
And tears of joy.
People cry upon seeing A2.
People cheer upon seeing D7.
The difference in people is just something very big.
Too big and probably complicated for other people to understand.
But afterall,
It is just a grade.
Yeah, I know,
I've got an A1 so Im saying all these stuff.
Well, if I didn't get an A1,
The only thing that will change in this blog post is the first few paragraphs.
Probably swearing at having to take CLL,
And having to write an appeal letter not to take CLL.
I won't consider retaking chinese.
Don't ask my why,
Its hard to explain.
Its something like,
This is the best I can do,
And I will accept it.
So I've obtained and A1 in my higher mother tongue.
And I'm happy.
Yeap,
I don't deny that I'm happy.
Special thanks to Mdm Liu Qian for her teachings.
Truly grateful for the drillings and scoldings.
Thank you.
Does scoring an A1 have any true meaning?
Am I thinking too much?
